Sometimes I go too far (or do I?)
The conundrum of discernment
With each painting, there are many stages. It's a necessary consequence of an intuitive painting method. Often I don't like what happens during the process, but I don't know how (or don't want to) paint any other way for now. Having a road map is just too contrived, and where it may produce prettier paintings, mere pretty paintings is not what I want to accomplish!
Above is an "out of control" stage of my painting "Edinburg Gap". Funny thing is, I really liked it when it happened! Enough to take a picture, crop it, and download it to my computer. But a version of a painting is an endangered species, at very high risk of becoming extinct. And this version no longer exists.
What I wonder is, did I go too far or should I have had confidence that this wild version of "Edinburg Gap" was the one to savor and present to the world? The aim in my current work is to continually refine and define what I want to say as an artist: My particular expression.
This is the duty of the artist.
Below are all of the stages that "Edinburg Gap" went through. It began auspiciously, got a little muddled, became clear, went crazy, and then was reined in. The reined in version is beautiful to me, but yes, it's safe. Safe is OK, but what about crazy?